The Honest Scientist

When you stare ahead and darkness is all you see, only reason and motivation can pull you back from the abyss.

Stay rational. Stay true to your goals. Plan ahead.

“Being entirely honest with oneself is a good exercise”

-Sigmund Freud

I shall now be more honest with myself. And to do that,  I must create yet another blog so I could constantly pour in my thoughts about things. Though I haven’t really abandoned my wordpress and blogspot accounts yet, I just feel like shifting back to tumblr again. This is my second tumblr account and it’ll be used for personal posts.

Alright, so I actually need to talk more to myself. I haven’t really been honest with myself lately. I’m constantly avoiding things that need to be done. It has had a really, really bad effect on every aspect in my life, especially with my relationships with people and with school. Oh, school. I’m currently at the back of the pack in my MBB 141 class. Frankly, it’s all because I care too much about what other people think of me. Because of that, I haven’t really been myself in Albert Hall. Ever. To be honest. I’ve never been my actual real self in the confines of NIMBB. 

All these 3 years, I’ve been afraid of how stupid fucktards think about me. Their opinions of me don’t have any effect on me at all, unless I allow them to. So it’s really my choice at the end of the day. Well, guess what, that’s now officially going to change. I will try not to place too much value in how people would perceive me. I have to constantly give myself respect. The effect of doing more of the back-up role has a tremendous consequence on my self-esteem. I must repair this as soon as possible. And to do that, I must join Demolay and Toastmasters’ Club. I must also take the SATs. Apply for Stanford, Yale and Johns Hopkins. Nothing to lose and everything to gain. My sem is pretty much just 13 units since MUL13 doesn’t really demand much. So I have a lot of time to do these things. 

NMAT review + Gym (30 minutes a day) + Diet + SAT review

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Rex: son, lover, scientist, future biotech consultant, friend, inspirer